I have a few theories and they all circle back to the fact that for some unexplainable reason God has asked me to do this and the enemy is attacking, trying his best to keep me from it.
He’s attacking in some seemingly small ways, like filling my mind with all of sorts of things that seem to be more fun, or at least easier than the task given to me.
There are also bigger lies that a significant part of me wants to believe. Those lies range from thinking that I can’t write because I don’t have the skill, or that before I start I must have a big picture goal in mind, or how about the belief that blogging is “dead” and that’s the only place I have to write.
I guess in reality there is some truth to all of those things. But what I really believe, deep down in my gut, are that those things don’t matter because for some reason God has asked this of me. I continue to feel compelled to write. To write the things God is teaching me, to write about his grace and mercy, to write about what it looks like to intentionally live for him.
I believe that it is an amazing privilege that my God would want to use me, that He would ask something of me.
But the question remains, why am I so slow to act?
This makes me think of Moses and how he responded when God asked him to go to Pharaoh and rescue the Hebrew people. Moses had so many “what ifs” and reasons why God should choose someone different. He tried reasoning with God in an effort to prove to Him what a mistake it was to choose Moses.
I’m so like Moses. I tell him that this current direction doesn’t match the proven processes of vision planning in order to execute successfully, or that He’s picked the wrong person for the job. Doesn’t He know that I’m not that talented? I even ask him to simply give me something else to do.
His response is still the same.
Write, I’ll take care of the rest.
So, I’m committing today to start writing every day. I’m not exactly sure what my plan is, but I’m just going to do it and see where the Lord takes it.
Why every day? Because God has asked me to and I desperately want to be obedient. Because I want to set a good example for my daughter – one that shows her the importance of following God whole-heartedly and having the discipline to stick with it. Because for some reason I believe that God is going to use these words, and I want to bring Him glory through them.
My question to you is, what is the thing that you feel compelled to do? Are you doing it? If not, why not?
I pray that today would be the day that you take one step forward. You don’t have to have a fully thought out plan. Just do the thing God is asking you to do and watch him do his work through you.