Too often I find myself trying to write someone else’s story. If I’m not careful I don’t even realize it’s happening. I idly accept feelings of jealousy and resentment towards other women who seem to have a much “better” and more purposeful life than I do. Then I wake up one day suffocating from the pressure of it all.
I feel discontent. I wonder what the future will hold. I want a plan so badly I can hardly think straight without one. So what do I do? I create one. I create my own with the intent on living in the seemingly perfect stories of other people.
Instead of stopping, being still and asking the Father to guide me, to help me discover His already perfectly created plan, I keep hurrying, looking, striving, working toward this elusive perfection that the world has declared good. I look at the lives other people are living and I become envious. So I add pieces of their story to my own. Then, I take in the expectations of other people and use those to shape the outline of my story. I look at Instagram and Pinterest and determine that in order to be “good enough” staged perfection must become my reality.
You see, I look to everything and everyone else around me to draft the story I think I want to live instead of stilling myself at feet of Jesus and slowly unpacking His truly perfect story.
I believe that way too many women can relate to this picture I’m describing. We look to the internet and other women to tell us who and what we are to be. We take the perfect from everyone else’s story and try to cram it into a nice little box and call it our own, only to find ourselves exploding with disappointment and resentment.
The scary thing is that too many of us don’t even realize it’s happening. We’re so busy striving for the seemingly perfect that we’re never quiet enough to hear the still, small voice of our Savior longing to bring us the life of freedom, peace, and flourishing that he planned for us all along.
So what do we do? How do we say no to the striving for a Pinterest-perfect life and yes to discovering and accepting WHATEVER the Lord has planned for us.
We have to take responsibility for our own decisions. No more standing idly by letting life happen to us without recognizing the effect this world is having on our souls. We must live lives of intention. We must become noticers of our surroundings and every seemingly small decision that we make. We must take time for our Savior and be willing to say no and let go of things that don’t line up with the life of freedom He’s offering.
Let’s not let life just happen to us. Let’s stop striving for someone else’s story.
Let’s discover our own unique story.
Friends, it’s only here that we will have the freedom and peace and stillness that we so desperately long for.