I long to thrive. I long to flourish in this life, to live completely in the middle of my calling. In fact, I’m not even sure that the word “long” properly expresses the depth of my emotion.
If I’m honest with myself, I realize that there’s a part of me that believes that once I find my “place” – that place where each component of my life reaches some level of perfection and converges together and creates a life full of brilliance and happiness – I will thrive and flourish for the rest of my life. It’s as if flourishing is a destination to be reached rather than a way of living.
The problem with this is that it keeps me continually longing for the next thing. Unhappy and frustrated, and instead of looking for God’s calling in the middle of my current situation, I just keep pointing out to myself why I’m not there yet. It means that I’m never fully present, never fully accomplishing what God has for me in the current moment. Can’t you just see Satan all over this?
I spend so much time longing for this future moment when I’ll be perfectly content that I miss all the of the amazing blessings God has for me now. I miss opportunities to do His work now while I’m longing, hoping, waiting for the “perfect” situation to do his work – my “ultimate calling”.
Here’s the thing, when I stop and think about it, I’m confident that God has called me to my current situation, even though it’s hard and often too humbling for my liking. Deep down in my soul I want to be obedient to Him in the place I’m in now, and I believe that if I am, I can flourish here too.
Maybe I’ve let myself believe that flourishing is supposed to be easy. Maybe I’ve succumbed to the idea that if I’m living in the middle of God’s will that I wouldn’t have to work so hard to thrive.
What I’m learning is that flourishing often takes a huge dose of bravery. It means connecting with God in a deep way, knowing myself and what I need to truly thrive, and then fighting for it with all I have.
I don’t think God calls us to an easy and comfortable life. He calls us to a meaningful life that’s worth fighting for – and you know what, that fight is often hard. It requires bravery, that I take a step and have faith in this truly magnificent God that I follow.
Never again do I want to miss out on His blessing because I was too timid. Too afraid to fight. Too discontent and always longing for the future.
So friend, what is God wanting you to fight for? What step can you take to flourish where you are now?
Flourishing isn’t a destination of perfection. Our Father longs to see you flourishing where you are today, where He has so patiently and intentionally placed you.